Y'all.
I am overwhelmed. I have so many things I want to do both here and in all the other areas of my life. I want to write reviews of some really fun reading I've done lately. I want to finish and then share with you the author and illustrator conversations I've just barely gotten started. I want to tackle two really intriguing reading projects I have in mind. I want to think more and plan more and tell you about our family's big project for this spring/summer. I want to do some writing on the several exciting ideas I've had lately. I want to finish the book I'm reading and get some painting done and just mop the darn floors. I want to train for the 5k I'm running with my sister in just under 2 weeks. I want to take a shower and shave my legs. I want to cook well and get the early garden in and rake up all. the. nuts. the squirrels left behind in the yard. I want to file our taxes and finish our annual photo book from 2010 and continue planning the living room/dining room shakeup that's been swimming in my head. I want to read the 419 posts in my Google Reader.
The problem is my desk is dirty, cluttered, haphazard, unkempt. I don't want to be here. I don't want to sit in this space until I can get some physical clarity about me. So most nights I've been retreating to the TV or my bedroom instead of doing productive things here. Rather than do anything helpful, I watched the godawful Oscars last night, the only redeeming moment of which was me being so utterly befuddled yet captivated by the trainwreck existence of Kristen Stewart.
I hope to get my desk cleaned off tomorrow and maybe get some productivity going. And for tonight, I will do at least this:
THANKS so much to Beth at bookwormmeetsbookworm for the wonderful signed copy of Ann Patchett's State of Wonder. Even if owning this book adds yet another thing to the list of things I want to do, I am thrilled to have it! Also worthy of thanks is the post that lead to me receiving this book. Beth went to Parnassus Books, Patchett's store in Nashville, and her post reminded me that I want to stop in there on my next trip through Nashville. Since I'll be heading that way for the aforementioned 5k, I plan to make it happen. Because no matter how overwhelmed I might get, the little sortasecret children's area Beth pictured makes me remember why I do it all. Love.
I feel like that's the general consensus: Not enough hours in the day! I feel like I can't read fast enough, or read and clean the house, or read, clean the house, and cook. My partner and I divide all home duties and we're still pooped most of the time!
ReplyDeleteA good, clean desk is always something that cheers me up and motivates me to get back into writing or editing photos. I think you'll definitely notice a different.
Most importantly, don't forget to relax!
Thanks for featuring me here and so glad you got the book! It's wonderful.
I think that may be part of my deal, Beth: my husband is a basketball coach who just finished his season. In season, I don't get nearly my full other "half". Basketball takes it! The desk being cleaned has made a big difference. Now, I'm trying to decide whether to try to play catch up on all the reviews or just to "mark all as read." Thanks for the support!
DeleteEverybody needs to unplug, regroup, recharge, . . . Now seems to be the time for many. Don't feel bad. Do what you need, no guilt, & come back strong.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Snowball. I hate to be so absent for so long, but it has been necessary. Maybe I need to just let go of the guilt and be restored by it.
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